away.

I'll be in Vegas the next few days till Friday. I am going to see The Beatles Love show. Cirque du Soleil at the Mirage. And it will be just me and dear ol' dad. I hope to have a litttle fun. get a little tippppsayyyy. But in the meanwhile I want to write the best blog yet. to fill in the gap.

here goes.

Infinity. Infinite love. Infinite hate. Either way. is a paralyzing state.
Identity. beautiful self. self-consciousness. either way your put to test.

Look at your shadow. notice how it never falls perfectly upon the ground. it meets a corner. it meets an edge. its stretched across the cement in the sun. or is just a wandering blob.
I'm just a wandering one. with my imperfections to follow. my bumps. my scratches. my scrapes. my bruises. and yours as well. we all fall under the same category. and that is. We have lived.
We have made it this far. Why not finish the journey. There may have been times we have wanted to give up. Let me rephrase. There have been times I have wanted to give. up and drop out of the race. but i didn't.
Before I dropped out I thought "there must be more" And there has been. I have the most wonderful life. And I have found that we tend try and find reasons to be upset. I have nothing to be upset over. I have the most wonderful boyfriend. Who I love dearly. and The best of friends who are practically sisters. and I have love. I carry it around with me, everywhere I go. You can see it in my smile. Instead of looking for something to be upset about. Look for something you can love. Fall in love with your life. as I am in love with mine. Love the people in your life. They may not be there for you till the end.

Embrace. People, and life. Stretch. and love your body! Floss. then kiss. Stride. with determination. Write. your secrets, and blow them away. Listen. and speak the words.

Go home. Someone is waiting for you. get lost in the beauty of life around you.

Laugh. and give those around you hope. There is hope for the hopeless. Neverforget. your laughter is contagious. your smile is captivating. don't worry about your problems. they will pass. and take care in those around you.

And embrace.

See you in Dreamland my love. <3

Who's gonna watch you die?

What Sarah Said - Death Cab for Cutie

Sillyness. Sillyness for us humans not ever wanting to grow old. Not ever wanting to be seen with raisin-wrinkled skin, and etched smile-laugh lines across our worn out skin. When it is actually a privilege to have so much knowledge and wisdom. To know every bump in the road, and every stone in the path. To grow old with someone who you still fall in love with more and more everyday. To be so humble and take a walk with him and just laugh knowing you have lived it to the fullest. You've tried on every sock in the drawer. You've had the experience of a lifetime. To tell everyone you have, "Seen it all!" kissed every frog to find the guy. And that you have danced the funky chicken at your 4oth wedding anniversary. Although your age sets you back and causes forgetfulness, you can still remember your first kiss. Your first love. Your first heartbreak. Your first husband..haha Your last husband. The beauty in age is so unseen.
Those who never even experienced the laugh lines etched upon their skin. Those who never lived past 35. or even 18. or even 5 minutes old. Those who never even had a future before they had a past. The aborted. The murdered. The sickly. The depressed. The addicted. I have a confession. I am proud of. My birth mom, was date raped. Which is how the blessed miracle, of this singing, inspiring, piece of magnificence came to be. August '09 is when this truth had been uncovered. For 15 years of my life I had thought I was the unwanted. But now I know, I am the blessed.
And its SO insane! to think I could have easily been put away. Just another dent in a woman's life. But I wasn't. and there must have been SOME reason why I survived. I survived years of pain. I am Lisa Shae Johnson. and I am Pro Life.
I have survived.
Can you?

I like that.

I like that - Static Revenger & Richard Vission ft luciana

Thats a good song by the way. <3

Its disgusting how we are so closely attached to certain people, certain places, and certain inanimate objects. But all at the same time it is beautiful. How close we become. I feel like I can tell her anything. and she won't judge me. I can feel our close connection. I know she is as beautiful inside as she is outside. She is spontaneous. She is laughter. She is love. She is the light of my soul. She drives my heart to the sun. Her name is NatalieAnnBuller. and she is one of the most curious people. Unlike any other girl you could possibly find. she gives me happy smiles. she makes me excited. and makes me happy. I know she will be leaving to a whole different world. but I am going to try my best to stick with her to the end. I will count my pennies and drive on a gallon of gas to her. I know she is love. i know my life is love. i have so many i can depend on to be there for me. She isn't the only one i am in love with. i am sooo in love with my friends. they are beauty in my eyes. they light me up like a candle and i feel all warm and fuzzy inside like i swallowed a kitten <3
never could i go on without Kendra. She is my white black woman. She feeds me art and inspiration. just by jumping off a cliff making complete fools of ourselves. with each breath i take is a new page in my book of secrets, love, life, and most importantly friendshit.
i say friendSHIT because my friends are the SHIT. <333
i love you guys <3
goodnight.

thoroughly enlightened.

We all hold secrets. Deep within our hearts, or right below the surface. We are all in search of release. Even if we don't realize we need to just let go. We all have secret requests, secret events, secret lives. I secretly wish I could find some way to change me. But I can't. and that is exactly what people expect from me... is to change. Don't blame me for not wanting to change who I am. I haven't been perfect. This life I've lived hasn't been easy all the time. I've been through rough. I've been awakened by every bump in the road. And I have learned from each rocky jolt.
I've held things deep within me. locked up emotions. you can only hear me through my music. my emotion. my life. my struggles. me. The only place you can find me is within myself. You can make stories up about me. You can judge me. but you can't change me.
Its funny isn't it? how we apologize. how we mourn. how we are set in our ways. how we try to change others. how we try to make them more like us. we don't like what we see in ourselves. so we change others. its funny isn't it? how we give up. on people. on projects... ourselves. we blame others. but when it comes down to it.. the race is with ourselves.
I try so desperately to hear other peoples complaints and then try and make them happy.. but what concerns me the most.. is that they never are truly happy. even though I try so hard. but it never works. because the only thing they want from me is to change myself. How? how can I make this easier? How come it is so hard to see these scars as a sign that i survived. instead of a sign that I almost didn't?

What is love?

This is an old English project I did last year. I quite enjoyed doing it actually.

(you probably have heard this come from me alot ...)



What is Love? Love has been around pretty much, since the beginning of time. It is a feeling that comes pretty naturally. It is known as a feeling, that butterfly feeling in the pit of a person’s tummy, that undeniable sensation, where that person is the happiest they could possibly be. “Love is as common as a cold, but has the power to cure.” I’ve also heard that love is also an action, as well as a feeling, from others. They call it making love, or showing affection towards others. Although making love is a whole other research topic. It’s very difficult to determine whether love is more of a feeling or an action. Many have tried to solve the big mystery of love, and what it really is all about. Love is indefinable.

Love is the puzzle, not one dictionary in the world would ever define, or cover what love really means, or even what it is. “The diversity of uses and meanings combined with the complexity of the feelings involved makes love unusually difficult to consistently define.” Love is something magical, although some do not believe in magic. Love is good, but may bring out the bad. People fight for love. Fighting for love is almost an oxymoron.

“I’m a lover not a fighter, but I’ll fight for what I love”. Love can consume our lives, and dismantle our hearts. People become caught in the moment and are so infatuated, love can mislead them. People are led to doubt love even exists.

For example Christofer Drew Ingle, a famous singer/songwriter wrote a song of his parents separation. “What is love? Is it giving up?” That song is what inspired me to go into deeper research on the big question. Love is the inspiration for many songwriters, poets, and novelists. Christofer began questioning love because he looked up to his parents love, and now, he doesn’t know what to believe about love. “Love is a battlefield,” Sang Pat Benatar, who sang of rough topics. Sometimes, yes love is a battlefield, from divorced parents, to broken teenage hearts. Love is the influence for many songwriters, poets, and novelists. Without love, these writers would be scrambling for something to write about.

Of all the answers received by people, and sites as well, is love still indefinable? Love is still indefinable to me. Some people have love all figured out. Those people have that love thing succeeding greatly. I think that individuals can only explain love to themselves. Individuals can’t be told what love is. We all have to figure it out for ourselves. “Many people believe love is a sensation that magically generates when mister or misses right appears. It can spontaneously degenerate when the magic ‘just isn’t there anymore.’” Love is a maze, a trap. Love can either destroy us or save us.





Q:What is Love?

Levi Benjamin Minson, Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Good question.

Tyler Mattson, Wednesday, April 14, 2010

baby don't hurt me

don't hurt me

come on!

Brad Nash, Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Love is patient, kind, not self-centered, doesn’t boast


Montana Greeno February 3 at 4:16pm

Love is when your stomach gets tied, your heart beats faster, and you're basically breathless, just by talking to one person, and you heart sinks every time they have to leave even if it's just for a minute. J

Deborah Townsend Kirkle February 3 at 4:10

1st Corinthians 13: Love is patient, kind, long suffering, hardly even notices when other's do it wrong. Living Bible version.

April Wold February 3 at 5:38

your music ;)

February 3 at 5:41
Im serious

Elyse Northcutt February 3 at 5:42
love is something that has no solution to it. its a rare thing you find in life that if you are lucky enough, it wont hurt you. but for the average person, its just a pain in the rump.


Sheamus Vaughan-warde February 3, 2010, 6:19 PM

baby, don't hurt me, don't hurt me, no more


Brooke Lawrence February 3, 2010, 6:20 PM

"It takes moments to fall in love but it takes years to know what love is."


Andrew James Sloan February 3, 2010, 6:21 PM

1 corinthians 13:4...yeaaaah.
6:50 on the other hand i think love is barely a feeling.its an action. i think it is more simple than people think.


Karissa Kirkle February 3, 2010, 6:32 PM

i dont think you can really put a definition to love..... its something that you have to feel not something that you can put in a dictionary and say here is the definiton..... When you find it you will just know....

Kristen Davis Waters February 3 at 5:25pm

To start, here's a Bible romance:

Genesis 29:20
So Jacob worked seven years to pay for Rachel. But his love for her was so strong that it seemed to him but a few days.

1 John 3:18
Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth. (NLV)

Proverbs 15:17
A bowl of vegetables with someone you love is better than steak with someone you hate. (NLV)

1 Corinthians 13:1-13

If I speak in the tongues of men and angels,
but have not love,
I have become sounding brass or a tinkling symbol.

And if I have prophecy and know all mysteries and all knowledge,
and if I have all faith so as to remove mountains,
but have not love, I am nothing.

And if I dole out all my goods, and
if I deliver my body that I may boast
but have not love, nothing I am profited.

Love is long suffering,
love is kind,
it is not jealous,
love does not boast,
it is not inflated.

It is not discourteous,
it is not selfish,
it is not irritable,
it does not enumerate the evil.
It does not rejoice over the wrong, but rejoices in the truth


It covers all things,
it has faith for all things,
it hopes in all things,
it endures in all things.

Love never falls in ruins;
but whether prophecies, they will be abolished; or
tongues, they will cease; or
knowledge, it will be superseded.

For we know in part and we prophecy in part.

But when the perfect comes, the imperfect will be superseded.

When I was an infant,
I spoke as an infant,
I reckoned as an infant;

when I became [an adult],
I abolished the things of the infant.

For now we see through a mirror in an enigma, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know as also I was fully known.

But now remains
faith, hope, love,

these three;

but the greatest of these is love."

John 15:13
"Greater love has no one than this, that one lay down his life for his friends.

John 3:16
"For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life."


Good luck with your school project! :) (And you look very pretty in your profile pic).

Kristen






Alissa Adkins February 3, 2010, 6:42 PM

love is indefinable.


Levi Benjamin Minson February 3, 2010, 11:14 PM

jesus.


Karissa Kirkle February 3, 2010, 11:15 PM

it is an action... love is always in action. Andrew is right it is more simple than people think. You just have to be willing to see it


Mohab Farid February 3, 2010, 11:15 PM

love is something always around you,,, love have lots of definitions according to who you love friend, boy/girl friend, or family,,, love is very simple but you can make it very complicated.


Regina Helson February 4, 2010, 3:55 PM

Brooke got it right on! It's kinda like the fact that we are supposed to strive to be like Christ. We know we will never be just like Him, but the effort that we bring to get there, will show how much we love Him. We may never have perfect love for someone, but if we want it bad enough, we will work hard to get there.


Alissa Adkins February 4, 2010, 3:56 PM

these definitions make me quite happy.
love is most definitely a choice. the feelings that we call "love" fade away and, according to 1 corinthians 13, "love never fails." so, i think if we say that love is a feeling, we are just fooling ourselves.


Joy Pontious February 4, 2010, 3:58 PM

Love is a complicated subject because we Americans have only one word for it, whereas its meaning is so vast. It can be what a parent feels for a child. It can be affection. It can be friendship, it can be romance. It can be compassion. Mostly though, I suppose it is always putting someone else above yourself. Love is beautiful sacrifice.


Ryan Jaspar February 4, 2010, 4:26 PM

At this age... stupid


Deborah Townsend Kirkle February 8, 2010, 12:54 AM

To love someone is to know
the song in their heart and to sing it to them when they have forgotten
the words.

Lisa Johnson: okay soooo what is your definition of love?

Amanda Walker: hmm...

Lisa Johnson: take yer time:)

Amanda Walker: well...that would depend....ya know....im not really sure. why?

Lisa Johnson: im collecting answers to that question for my english project

Amanda Walker: ohhh. coolness. ya know im going to have to get back to you on that...cause i got to think about it.

Lisa Johnson: okay:))

Amanda Walker: lol. i like it thou. you picked a good one.

Lisa Johnson: yeah:))

Matt Jensen: haha. uhhh. Well, i think its something you do, not something you feeel.

would that work?

Lisa Johnson: haha you can be totally goofy about this if you want ^_^

Matt Jensen: ha. i dont goof. at all son

Lisa Johnson: oh. right. haha okay:)) well thanks. son.

Kelly Adkins: I believe Love is to have complete trust in another person. And a bond that isn’t all fate but something that two people really work at

i believe.

I believe that whatever happens, happens. Why do I believe this? I’m not even

sure myself. Life is a journey, people die, people cry. When it comes down to it, things

just happen. These events that happen, whether it’s a small or big event, they make me

wonder why, but I just move on. So, whatever happens, it just happens, I believe this

entirely.

A boy might break my heart. Let me rephrase; I may have my heart broken many

times in the future by a boy or two. Maybe for a certain reason, or no reason at all. I guess

it just happens, everyone goes through that kind of stuff these days. Some of those kinds

of things help us learn to grow. These situations just happen, reason or not, they do.

Some one close to me will always die. It sucks, it really does. I assure myself,

there will be tears. Death will happen though. Its pretty natural. (Unless your shot by

some hunter guy while out in the woods on some big extravaganza.) I deal with it though.

That sounds careless, but I do care.

I live on the edge by pulling crazy stunts that frighten me. I will not be

inconsiderate with other peoples hearts, and I won’t put up with people who are

inconsiderate with mine. I don’t waste my time on jealousy. The race is long, and in the

end its only with myself. If you remember compliments and forget criticism… and

succeed in doing this tell me how. Oh my goodness, the adventures I have been on, only

due to the crap I put up with. It all takes me on the ride of my life.

I’ve learned to love. I love, even when I can’t feel it. I love, and I won’t admit it. I

love, and I love it. Love happens even with the people I loathe. Even with strangers, (like

that one Abercrombie god I saw at the beach with the chiseled abs,) but I guess that’s lust.

Some people say love is icky, only because of some awkward love crisis in their past. But

it happened so, whatever. It happened.

There will be many people in my life. They will come and they will go. Although

some come and stay for good. Unlike my sister who is always there. I’m nice to her, she

is the greatest connection with my history, and most likely to stay with me till the end. Me

and her? we are best friends, The closest kind of friends there are. I understand that

chums come and go, although there is that many few that are precious and I keep them

close.

I am going to call it a day, and leave with these last few remarks for you to

embark upon. Dream, read the directions, (even if you don’t follow them,) floss, sing,

stretch, dance. I may be wed, I may not. I may have children, or not. What if I divorced at

37? Or possibly boogie to “Sexy Back” by Justin Timberlake at my seventy-second

wedding anniversary. 20 years from now I will look back at paparazzi shots of myself and

won’t realize how much potentiality was ahead of me. Also how fabulous I really looked.

I will know that what has happened in my life, has happened, reason of not, I’ll know I

had a blast.

manipulation.

You are not boring or vain, or simple or mean. You are colorful, complex, and have a beauty that is all your very own. And for the record you are infinitely nicer than they give you credit for. Be soft. Do not let the world make you hard. Do not let the pain make you hate. Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness. Take pride that even though the rest of the world may disagree, you still believe it to be a beautiful place. Love and electricity are one in the same. my dear. if you do not feel the jolt in your soul every time a kiss is shared. a whisper is spoken. a touch is felt. then you aren't really in love at all. We all write our own stories. but we all want someone to feed off of. Someone who can help us out with our stories. Someone to be our solid. Its what everyone seems to crave.
Maybe its the way he holds me. or maybe its the way his charm pulls me in. like a whirlpool I get caught in the middle. Like being drown. Possibly its the way I find a refuge.
I guess that just makes me human.
because I love.

Bliss.

This page has been blank for about a day now. and i wasn't sure what to write at first. but after spending time with my best friend. I know exactly what to write. Its funny how you meet someone and you don't even think, for one second, what this blossoming relationship could turn to. You would never expect that one person can change your life. The way you speak, the way you think, and you begin to have a whole new perspective on life. You don't even know why but you begin to grow attached, and it feels good. You begin to wonder if they are as attached to you, as you are to them. Constantly you want to be with them, to just talk...
Constantly I want to be with him. Constantly I want to be with her. They are the loves of my life. They cheer me up when I am down. I can be me.. whoever I want. such a feeling is so beautiful. Nights such as last night, is real beauty. sitting in a pool with my best friend. watching for shooting stars. and just talking. that free feeling. and then sleeping beneath the starry sky. Bliss. Pure, Bliss.
Its beautiful how you can be in ones arms and you can feel an intense and amazing relaxation, as if you have nothing to worry about. Not anymore. You can forget who you are for a moment. and you can forget your chores. Your dirty laundry. Just being with this person, can give you the case of the butterfly virus. and just hearing their voice as they softly whisper how much you mean to them. Love. It is you. It is us. It is we. because we weren't made to fight. we are born lovers. and peace bearers. and love is the most passionate and strong when we are young. we feel more intensely and love more strongly and fight more fiercely. because our generation is born lovers. So we love.
You can't get this feeling in a store. You can't pay for that in the movie theater. You buy it off a bookshelf in the nearest bookstore. You can't buy it online, or download it for free. You simply must hold out your hand, smile, and introduce yourself.

We are young.

Sorry I didn't write last night. anyways..
today I am able to hang out with my bestest friend ever. she's the love of my life. and my inspiration. to be what I want to be. and oiyghbgfjnifcghounmiufcykjlhn978fdbnb8dfiojhuitdcugpokjp0imn9iygfvjhgut5dsekjbniyh i9holj kilkygfvoijnil;ycfiopihiy9fliyh0ghk8utvnkkyurk[o][p
{interruption from my uncle.}
anyways i am soo extatic. right now.

Do I Need to Explain Myself?

i woke up this morning to the sound of my mom. opening my door. I don't know why she does that when she knows that i have mice in my room that the cat could sneak in and pounce. then i fell back asleep and she woke me up twice telling me the gracious news that my most favorite Uncle Doug would be coming over. and that's pretty exciting! he's so awesome. and my cousin is coming too :) so tonight should be exciting:)
isn't it funny how we try to impress others. so we get all fancy. and clean our houses and wash our clothes. my mom is in cleaning mode currently.
so i have a question then we will get into some serious stuff. should I make a facebook page for my music?? answer back?

its funny how we make a big deal out of the smallest things. like... "so and so is dating that person." or "they DID it!" dun dun dunnnnnn. what are we gonna do? its like we feed off of other people lives. people make way too big of a deal about love sex and drugs and rock 'n roll. And even more importantly why do we do it. i know from personal experience. that people enjoy hearing about my life and yours. it seems to be all we can talk about. over a cup of coffee. in the middle of the night with the girls. over dinner. girls talk. and talk. we like talking about everyone elses shitty lives. like oh my goodness. my principal always used to give my class lectures telling us "not to gossip" but i did anyways. i said "up yours!" and began running my mouth like a marathon. and it felt sooo gooood. to know everything about everybody. and that's probably really bad. but it felt great. people would come to ME to know things. but now.... I watch myself. because now.. i know things. that.. should stay silent. and somethings. you need to keep hidden. some secrets should not be known to everyone. I've become a box of secrets. with a lock and key.
so that's all i have to say about that.

my favorite black person;; Kendra.

Deas vail- Balance

The last thing on your mind.

Thats a song. by LIGHTS. its good. check it :)
So you know how some plans don't always go as planned?
well thats what happened tonight. i happen to ef things up when i try and plan something fun. but tonight was just messy. but in the end i had fun. i got to see my amazing boyfriend. and my awesome... Dawn <3 face="georgia">i guess you could say i have a pretty chill life. nothing to dramatic. unless you come meet my family. talk about drama. but i learn from them. My sister? i look up to her. i respect her honesty towards me.
tonight. a blessing. from a good friend. Nate is sooo awesome he promoted me over facebook and some people listened to me! ahh how exciting! and he wants to work on some music with me :D oh sounds so fun!
i need to turn in early tonight.
i washed my cat though! it was.... ehhh. idk. she was a pissed pussy!
haha i'll have more to talk about tomorrow! oh ^^^ thats my boyfriend. he is really hot. and i adore him. haha he is White. i <3 you babe.:)
anyways. goodnight all.

funny the way it is.

good morning. :)
I hope you slept well. i woke up this morning not knowing what i would write today. trying to conjure up something inspiring. but coming up with nothing. i followed my usual morning agenda. woke up. went pee. washed my hands. fixed breakfast. and then began checking out myspace. or facebook. either one works. and i came upon something. something shocking. My old best friend. well she isn't old. just i knew her since i was 7. and i cried. apart of my heart tore off and shrank to the bottom of my soul. i guess that's a little bit dramatic. but its what i felt at that moment. that moment that i saw apart of my past. and apart of my future. when i saw what i saw. i realized. what happened to our lives? i remember when we used to run around as little tykes. and not care if our clothes were color coordinated. or if our shoes were even on. its funny how fast we seem to grow up these days. i know as a matter of fact that our parents and our parents parents did not have to deal with the pressure that our generation has to deal with now. i suddenly became inspired to do Something. i think I'll write a song. what to write? what to write.
i have no clue.
i always want to write. i just don't know what. especially lately. We all want to hear that love song. or that one rap song about weed. or that one song about a horse and getting wasted in a bar. dumb country...

So me and Adam once played hockey.. and i said whoever wins loves the other more. and the game started off good for me. i was winning. but i felt bad soo i went easy on him. and let him win. and he had suchhhhhhh a big head about it! "oh i won the hockey game so i love you more!" durka durka durka. and soo i called a rematch. who do you think will win? personally i think i will. because that's how cool i am. :p nooot reallly.....

This is my best friend check her out. :) <3
she's beautiful <3 anywho thats all i have for now.
i have to give my cat a bath.

Jar of Hearts

so some more thought of today. i just spent the past two hours on my ipod playing Tap tap. what a life to live. right? its the American dream. i just can't seem to achieve a high enough score to that one song called Phantom pt II- justice it has quite the beat though. i guess i don't have quick enough fingers or maybe its when that one part comes up my pinky cramps up and i have to shake it out.
also. i discovered i am quite the mooner. i confess. it isn't the most polite thing to do. but its so riveting. haha anyways.
I am a teenager. my actions are never even fully thought through. and this is the time when love is the strongest. and friends are the tightest. and drama is coming at me from all over. and over all in one day. sometimes i hate being a teenager. but its whatever. i can't help being a teen. haha.
i love eminems new shizz. he's making a strong comeback:) and i like that. and his song with Hayley Williams [airplanes] is great.
Love the way you lie with Rihanna. perfect. eminem is one of my heros. <3


not gonna lie Lady gaga is like my hero. i mean she's so out there! don't hate me cause you ain't me.

ever love some one so much you could barely breathe?

one small step.

Hello. they call me Lisa. Sometimes Koala girl. [don't ask] i have no specific reasoning to why I want to write. i just do. So nice to meet you. i don't have the most interesting life. like my father is a rich billionaire. and my mother makes Martinis in a poolside bar. or i live with my sister and work in a stripper bar. i am just your average teenager. and i am a musician searching some sort of vent. because i am the kind of musician who nobody knows about except for close friends and family. i don't even have a job. like working at Denny's or the nearest Mexican food place. i am going to be a junior and i don't know what i am going to do with the rest of my life. i know some people at age 40 who still don't know what they are going to do. maybe I'll move to Vegas. or New York. or live with my parents till the day i die. or maybe I'll move to Mexico. Perhaps I'll start off as a tattoo artist. or a Cosmetologist. or a vet tech. haha. like that will ever happen. there is nothing to do in my small town that is swiftly expanding. so many things i would say if i were able. but you could also fill a lake with things i have never said. as i said before i am a musician. i write music. my own music. i record it on this little device i call my H. but that's what the box says... "H2" whether it's on the piano or the guitar or even the ukulele. you can find me here although i accidentally spelled my middle name wrong in the URL. I'm sick at the moment so i am currently living off of cough drops water and Soup. my room right now.. is like Lipton landing. I have a best friend to by the way. she's pretty much the coolest person. and inspires me everyday. when i was little i always wanted to have a friend that i could tell everything to. a friend that would tell me that she doesn't know what she would do without me. which she probably would just find a replacement for me.. but she is truly the greatest. we were made for each other. Kendra Jamar. i adore the crap outta you. Also Adam. oh my dear Adam. four months of solid love has done us well. he's like so cool. he thinks the sun shines out of my a**... it doesn't. i can always have a good time with that boy. and he has like the coolest family ever. i wish my dad were big man on top. my dad is a retired fireman now working as a bus driver. and my mom teaches piano. go figure. i guess it was destiny when i was adopted by these people. yes I'm adopted. but i am glad i am. because i would never have any of the people i adore now in my life. a best friend we can talk about drugs love and rock n roll. a boyfriend who is willing to paint my nails for me. and parents who support me no matter what i wanna be. and i could never forget about my sister who has taught me everything i need to know. we're street smart. love them forever. in this small town that people mix up with sonoma. this town where every store is 20 miles apart. and nothing is within walking distance. but its perfect actually. perfect weather. not to rainy during the winter. not to hot during the summer. 3 Starbucks. within walking distance of each other. and a Walmart. the queen store of Sonora. everybody goes there.
so theres half my story. well not even half more like one fourth. or even. like one fifth... maybee.....2 sevenths..... haha thanks for reading my so called life.